Damn, I got an idea. Check this out.
e This whole fucking sentence is the power of e. Fucking voaah!
That was stupid. Thank god, I haven’t
put this blog thing online. Hmm. I am starting to think that I should do that.
Maybe I will keep it anonymous.
After I watched the third episode of
Cosmos... Damn, my mind was blown. Goose bumps after goose bumps. The hair on
my skin went hard. It motivated me to work, to study. It made me study the next
2 hours which was very much needed. But then, the shit kicked in. I totally
forgot my motivation. Went browsing stupid 9GAG and youtubing. I will tell you
guys something. I am addicted to it. How
do I know? I sit on SpaceTime (I named my PC) all the time. When I don’t, I get
this craving for it. And when I do get back. Damn, that feel. It comes straight
to my brain and attacks to it. Give it a lot of that reward chemical. Shit, I
can’t remember the name. It is called Oxytocin, no that’s the ‘love’ one. It
releases a shitload of… Fuck, can’t remember! But you know what I mean, it
gives me this wave of relief. And I can’t stay away from it. What do I do? I
don’t know. I am 18 year old and I don’t need this addiction as I live in a
second world country with huge amount of population and hence, huge amount of
competition. You want the stats? The exam that I have on 9th has
total of 1400000 students appearing for it. That’s 1.4 million, I guess. We
don’t use the million-billion scale here. We use lac-crore system here. Out of that 1.4 million students just the top
50 thousand students get to nice colleges. Scary, isn’t it? And sad too.
Later.
6:46:21 PM
